ahh lets take a break from the abstract thots and drift back into reality. it's nice to be able to just express a little no matter how much difference it'll make...
i passed napfa today. got my silver... not just any silver but a silver that was 2 cm (sbj) away from a gold! lolz quite shocked myself at how much i can improve in just 2 short weeks... but somehow i'm not really celebrating. more relieved than elated... and besides i have a paranoic fear that i read the results wrongly so just wanna confirm the results tmr during pe before i gloat... altho by tmr i'd probably get over with this accomplishment arleady.
bah the sian-ness of everything is hitting again. it's a good thing the hols is coming up soon. need that short month of respite from the dreariness of jc life. don't understand why we're being pushed so hard and so fast and being stretched so thin when we're 18 years old! it's the prime time of our youth and what are we doing? studying. what a completely great way to waste our youth away. i have these flitting notions of young people enjoying life: backpacking, sports, music, reading and all the other entertainments... study ain't on that list. damn we don't even have time for friends and family. and if students like us (forgive the slight elitist hints) find it difficult to even grasp the concepts being taught, i really cannot imagine how other students in other jcs are coping. education is not meant to be something that we should struggle to keep up with, is it? shouldn't it be more relaxed... shouldn't we enjoy learning about new things rather than be on a constant overload. ugh. i have a lot of sympathy for all our lifestyles.
it's different when lessons are a joy to attend... lit used to be like that - a joy. lolz i guess PE for many it would be that... hear tantalizing anecdotes of how some of my friends look forward to pe only. i do sometimes... just not for all the games lolz. ki... if not for our teacher... i really think i would enjoy it. pity then that the core subject that i have most interest in always fills me with apprehension rather than longing.
oh well so much for moping. my cat class student did mention that life is what we make out of it... and that in this confined cell that society has placed on us, it is up to us to find our own measure of peace and joy. yea i do agree... but then again the shackles of secondary school life and the shackles of jc life have a completely different nature. seriously... at least in sec school we had fun. i really can't say the same for jc life.
i'd like to say i'm optimistic most of the times but recent entries would really prove otherwise for judging eyes. lolz maybe it's just cos i finished my new fantasy trilogy today so i'm bereft of a place to hide. oh well guess gotta stem the flow of self-sympathy before it gets out of control. find avenues of respite and persevere on... can't stop now on this road to excellence. can't take a different path now... partly a lack of courage and partly a nagging conscience.
back to studying chem and ki. think i'll sleep early tonight.
Name: Foo Guo Zhong Melvyn
Age: 19+
Affiliations: MSHS (Pri), Rosyth, RI, RJC, SFX (LoG)
Bday: 14th Nov
Email: mel_protoss@hotmail.com
ahh lets take a break from the abstract thots and drift back into reality. it's nice to be able to just express a little no matter how much difference it'll make...
i passed napfa today. got my silver... not just any silver but a silver that was 2 cm (sbj) away from a gold! lolz quite shocked myself at how much i can improve in just 2 short weeks... but somehow i'm not really celebrating. more relieved than elated... and besides i have a paranoic fear that i read the results wrongly so just wanna confirm the results tmr during pe before i gloat... altho by tmr i'd probably get over with this accomplishment arleady.
bah the sian-ness of everything is hitting again. it's a good thing the hols is coming up soon. need that short month of respite from the dreariness of jc life. don't understand why we're being pushed so hard and so fast and being stretched so thin when we're 18 years old! it's the prime time of our youth and what are we doing? studying. what a completely great way to waste our youth away. i have these flitting notions of young people enjoying life: backpacking, sports, music, reading and all the other entertainments... study ain't on that list. damn we don't even have time for friends and family. and if students like us (forgive the slight elitist hints) find it difficult to even grasp the concepts being taught, i really cannot imagine how other students in other jcs are coping. education is not meant to be something that we should struggle to keep up with, is it? shouldn't it be more relaxed... shouldn't we enjoy learning about new things rather than be on a constant overload. ugh. i have a lot of sympathy for all our lifestyles.
it's different when lessons are a joy to attend... lit used to be like that - a joy. lolz i guess PE for many it would be that... hear tantalizing anecdotes of how some of my friends look forward to pe only. i do sometimes... just not for all the games lolz. ki... if not for our teacher... i really think i would enjoy it. pity then that the core subject that i have most interest in always fills me with apprehension rather than longing.
oh well so much for moping. my cat class student did mention that life is what we make out of it... and that in this confined cell that society has placed on us, it is up to us to find our own measure of peace and joy. yea i do agree... but then again the shackles of secondary school life and the shackles of jc life have a completely different nature. seriously... at least in sec school we had fun. i really can't say the same for jc life.
i'd like to say i'm optimistic most of the times but recent entries would really prove otherwise for judging eyes. lolz maybe it's just cos i finished my new fantasy trilogy today so i'm bereft of a place to hide. oh well guess gotta stem the flow of self-sympathy before it gets out of control. find avenues of respite and persevere on... can't stop now on this road to excellence. can't take a different path now... partly a lack of courage and partly a nagging conscience.
back to studying chem and ki. think i'll sleep early tonight.